By You

I sat in the tree, the greenness surrounding me blocking out all the unwelcome mental images. I sighed, and, try as hard as I might, I couldn’t stop the flashback.
“What’s up? You look uncomfortable.”
“That’s because I am. I can’t keep pretending anymore.” I looked at him curiously, wondering what he meant.
“I can’t keep pretending I like you when I don’t. I’m sorry, but this is the end.” My mouth fell open, as your words slowly sunk in, ripping a hole in my chest. I sat down on the hard ground, wondering why he had to choose such a beautiful place to break my heart. His words echoed in my head, repeating over and over as I watched him walk away, becoming no less than a silhouette against the night sky. I curled into a ball, trying desperately to hold my shattered heart together with my weak-seeming arms.
My heart was shattered then, and now it’s just not there. The wounds growing worse with time, never to heal, as this hole in my life grows.
I was nothing. I spent my time walking around in an empty shell, all that’s left of my once happy self. I sighed, gazing out to sea. And then it occurred to me. So obvious I couldn’t work out why I didn’t see it before.
I jump down from the tree, walking towards the cliff edge with a determined look on my face. My only reason for existence was gone, never to brighten my now dull life again. So why should I carry on living?
As I fell, I welcomed Death with open arms, glad the pain was finally over.

Based on New Moon (2nd in twilight saga) and By You, a song by Mitch Hansen Band and inspired by New Moon